Courage is being scared to death, but saddling up anyway

Today I got the final blessing for the work I was hoping to have during my summer stay. Now everything is set and it's time to book a flight.

I try to convince myself this is not a big deal. Just another visit to a strange place. Just some more time away from home. Just some more time with him. No decisions have to be made based on the summer.

Of course I am excited.

And I'm freaking out.